Trying to catch up using all the strength I can
But all the uncertainties are still killing me.
I hope things will get better and future seems clearer soon.
I hope I can survive within this talent pool and I will be grateful just by being the 1/2000.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
When you are gone #1
I would say the most important person that I know during this 3 years is you - PHOONG! haha
Knowing you is my blessing and I will never never forget you unless some worms go into my brain and eats up all the memory.
You are one of the first person I met in Taylor's.
I remembered Rain recognized me in the toilet, and since she was with you and yin yee, she introduced both of you to me and four of us sat at the first few row of the left hand side of lecture hall that lecturer can always see our expression so clearly!
Since then the thought-to-be-lonely-throughout-my-degree-life me have companions all the time especially during lectures.
I remember I really enjoyed sitting at that row a lot and I continued to sit with you and yin yee when it was possible. Although at that time you kept a long curly hair, but your behaviour is like someone younger than us (which is a good thing) hahaha and you were so cute.
Forgot since which semester we had become close. I remember your brother worked at H20 and we always eat at there, before madam joyce moved to opposite.
I remembered I enjoyed every moment that I have been with you because it is so comfortable and sometimes I feel that you always agreed with me (maybe you purposely do that to make me happy and you did it! haha). I like the support you have given throughout the 3 years. When there was no one listen to me, when I was down, when I was lonely, stress, sad, you were there for me.
And because of your influence I have fall in love with bubble tea also! if I have diabetes then it will be your fault. haha.
You were the first person I trust in the degree life (fastly feel honoured, haha) and I was not afraid to tell you what I think because I know you will not judge me. The feeling of having such a friend that would not judge me really brightened up my life.
Although I was still emo-emo, but you made the emo-emo becomes emo! and most of the time with you I was really happy. haha
And because of your kindness, I made a one of my bravest move in my life. I moved in together with you although most of the people said living together might affect friendship. At that time I just had faith in you and our friendship and eventually I think it really made us closer (or actually you hated me since then? haha)
I remember you helped me pack madam joyce's dinner after you worked at H20. And I always lazy to go out so make u carry all the food back yourself but you still did that for me *love u so much*
I remember we did not know what to eat and suddenly feel like eating burger shop so we went all the way to asia cafe there even though it was really damn far.
I remember eating nice pizza at Asia Cafe with you coz you have a craving for PIZZA and pizzahut and canadian pizza din look nice enough to attract so we were adventurous and tried the pizza.
I remember chatting with you while I cannot sleep.
I remember you playing your computer all the time, facebook, the game that plant and harvest dont-know-wat.
I remember you slept most of the time ==
and you cut fruits for me! omgggggggggggggggg even better than my mum. haha I remember one time u cut dragonfruits for me and put it in a tupperware! omgggg. haha
And I remember the look of you coming out from toilet holding that thing, upset and depressed and I die die want you to go watson to buy a more expensive one but you were so reluctant. and eventually we still went to buy and the results were the same! == sorry for wasting your money.
I remember you don't like passion fruit coz it was too sour and you bought a box of yogurt to mix with it and it really tasted better.
I remember you enjoyed decorating the present box for yin yee, which was to cut those colourful paper into small strips and curl it. I remember you really enjoyed it while I din. haha
There were so much memories with you when we stayed together. so much so that I really need to find one day that I have the mood the be emotional and to think back so that I can write this post to you.
I remember we enjoyed shopping with each other. I always helped you calculate whether the things is worthy to buy or not and u seemed appreciate it. And I also learnt a lot from how you choose clothes.
And I remember you took bus all the way from KL to JB to find me just becoz you are bored.
I really admire your courage and the impulse that you did things. Impulse in a good way because that make you brave.
I really enjoyed a lot spending time with you, sms you, shop with you, talk to you, and everything with you! haha even though sometime you were so blur that I feel like smacking u! *smack*
Some pictures I grabbed from my old phone.
Knowing you is my blessing and I will never never forget you unless some worms go into my brain and eats up all the memory.
You are one of the first person I met in Taylor's.
I remembered Rain recognized me in the toilet, and since she was with you and yin yee, she introduced both of you to me and four of us sat at the first few row of the left hand side of lecture hall that lecturer can always see our expression so clearly!
Since then the thought-to-be-lonely-throughout-my-degree-life me have companions all the time especially during lectures.
I remember I really enjoyed sitting at that row a lot and I continued to sit with you and yin yee when it was possible. Although at that time you kept a long curly hair, but your behaviour is like someone younger than us (which is a good thing) hahaha and you were so cute.
Forgot since which semester we had become close. I remember your brother worked at H20 and we always eat at there, before madam joyce moved to opposite.
I remembered I enjoyed every moment that I have been with you because it is so comfortable and sometimes I feel that you always agreed with me (maybe you purposely do that to make me happy and you did it! haha). I like the support you have given throughout the 3 years. When there was no one listen to me, when I was down, when I was lonely, stress, sad, you were there for me.
And because of your influence I have fall in love with bubble tea also! if I have diabetes then it will be your fault. haha.
You were the first person I trust in the degree life (fastly feel honoured, haha) and I was not afraid to tell you what I think because I know you will not judge me. The feeling of having such a friend that would not judge me really brightened up my life.
Although I was still emo-emo, but you made the emo-emo becomes emo! and most of the time with you I was really happy. haha
And because of your kindness, I made a one of my bravest move in my life. I moved in together with you although most of the people said living together might affect friendship. At that time I just had faith in you and our friendship and eventually I think it really made us closer (or actually you hated me since then? haha)
I remember we did not know what to eat and suddenly feel like eating burger shop so we went all the way to asia cafe there even though it was really damn far.
I remember chatting with you while I cannot sleep.
I remember you slept most of the time ==
and you cut fruits for me! omgggggggggggggggg even better than my mum. haha I remember one time u cut dragonfruits for me and put it in a tupperware! omgggg. haha
And I remember the look of you coming out from toilet holding that thing, upset and depressed and I die die want you to go watson to buy a more expensive one but you were so reluctant. and eventually we still went to buy and the results were the same! == sorry for wasting your money.
I remember you don't like passion fruit coz it was too sour and you bought a box of yogurt to mix with it and it really tasted better.
There were so much memories with you when we stayed together. so much so that I really need to find one day that I have the mood the be emotional and to think back so that I can write this post to you.
I remember we enjoyed shopping with each other. I always helped you calculate whether the things is worthy to buy or not and u seemed appreciate it. And I also learnt a lot from how you choose clothes.
I really admire your courage and the impulse that you did things. Impulse in a good way because that make you brave.
I really enjoyed a lot spending time with you, sms you, shop with you, talk to you, and everything with you! haha even though sometime you were so blur that I feel like smacking u! *smack*
Some pictures I grabbed from my old phone.
The egg tarts that you made for us!
We did stupid things together. Saying that we write HD on our hand then we can get HD. haha
You and starbucks coffee. I think in Genting. haha
The first time I went to Ikea! with you! haha we ate ice-cream and the sausage bread!
Fei fei amos biscuit! can you make somemore for me? haha
We went to watch MAYDAY concert together! haha
Tira I miss you. damn nice tiramisu made by you! I hope I can eat it again. I think I can finish the whole bowl =)
There are some pictures still in my old phone that I din transfer. see if I am free then I transfer and upload some more photos that represents our memories =)
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
It comes to a point
At times, it comes to a point that you want to do something that nobody is supporting you.
You collect the information, you analyse, and you feel like following your instinct and just want to make up your mind.
But the noise besides you, the advice that people give you are all go against what you plan to do.
It comes to this point that you are in a dilemma.
You wonder whether what you are going to do is right or not.
There was a point like that, three years ago.
When I received my offer letter from NUS and my scholarships from Taylor's.
It was almost like a landslide support to NUS.
But I made a choice that went against everyone's will when I chose Taylor's.
That was the point that I was afraid of making a wrong decision.
And I was scared until now.
Life is difficult.
Especially when you need to make a decision that will affect your future.
You need to live with it, have faith in it, and grow from it.
You need to be confident that you made the RIGHT choice despite everyone's disapproval.
You need to walk straight, with your head up and proud of yourself.
It is difficult to have faith in yourself.
But if we can't even believe in ourselves, we will never be nearer to the point that we succeed.
Faith and confidence, are the most important components in life that helps u overcome challenges and move on even after you fail.
You collect the information, you analyse, and you feel like following your instinct and just want to make up your mind.
But the noise besides you, the advice that people give you are all go against what you plan to do.
It comes to this point that you are in a dilemma.
You wonder whether what you are going to do is right or not.
There was a point like that, three years ago.
When I received my offer letter from NUS and my scholarships from Taylor's.
It was almost like a landslide support to NUS.
But I made a choice that went against everyone's will when I chose Taylor's.
That was the point that I was afraid of making a wrong decision.
And I was scared until now.
Life is difficult.
Especially when you need to make a decision that will affect your future.
You need to live with it, have faith in it, and grow from it.
You need to be confident that you made the RIGHT choice despite everyone's disapproval.
You need to walk straight, with your head up and proud of yourself.
It is difficult to have faith in yourself.
But if we can't even believe in ourselves, we will never be nearer to the point that we succeed.
Faith and confidence, are the most important components in life that helps u overcome challenges and move on even after you fail.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
=)
I know that all those efforts will not go vain.
It is a good start.
And I know good lucks are coming.
They definitely are.
And I am going to work harder and harder to get my dream come true =)
It is a good start.
And I know good lucks are coming.
They definitely are.
And I am going to work harder and harder to get my dream come true =)
Monday, July 5, 2010
I know I am lucky =)
I received my first call from Big 4 Singapore!!!!
For all the application I have submitted, this is the first call I have received!
The HR - Karen told me that she is currently reviewing my application and they have vacancy in Assurance Line - Small and Medium Enterprise.
They asked me when will I get my results and whether I have prior full-time experience.
Apparently two internship experience is not enough for them, they require at least some full time audit experience.
She also said that she will forward my application to the respective department and will notify me if I am shortlisted for any interview.
Although I have not received any call to ask me to go for interview and it seems like they want someone with experience, I am satisfied with this call and it keeps me hopeful!
I can feel that it is a good start and good luck starts to come! =)
And I would like to pay my tribute to Taylor's Career Service - Ms Alicia Ching for helping me to send my application to Big 4 Singapore.
I have personally applied some positions on my own but so far no reply from all of them yet.
But those companies replied for the position I have applied via our Career Service.
So seem like it is a more effective mean to apply job.
Thanks to her, this call made my day =)
I am happy and hopeful. I guess this call can keep me going to wait for further calls from the same or other companies without losing hope.
Today is a good day =)
For all the application I have submitted, this is the first call I have received!
The HR - Karen told me that she is currently reviewing my application and they have vacancy in Assurance Line - Small and Medium Enterprise.
They asked me when will I get my results and whether I have prior full-time experience.
Apparently two internship experience is not enough for them, they require at least some full time audit experience.
She also said that she will forward my application to the respective department and will notify me if I am shortlisted for any interview.
Although I have not received any call to ask me to go for interview and it seems like they want someone with experience, I am satisfied with this call and it keeps me hopeful!
I can feel that it is a good start and good luck starts to come! =)
And I would like to pay my tribute to Taylor's Career Service - Ms Alicia Ching for helping me to send my application to Big 4 Singapore.
I have personally applied some positions on my own but so far no reply from all of them yet.
But those companies replied for the position I have applied via our Career Service.
So seem like it is a more effective mean to apply job.
Thanks to her, this call made my day =)
I am happy and hopeful. I guess this call can keep me going to wait for further calls from the same or other companies without losing hope.
Today is a good day =)
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Fate
Actually everything is fated.
We don't actually need to worry about our next step because what you are going to do, what you are going to achieve is predetermined.
You might stumble but the next thing you know, you have already stood up and recovered from the light injury.
It is an amazing feeling when u reminisce. The things you had gone through, the process has become clear.
You might have complaint a little about the rugged and bumpy road. But at the end you realised that is just something in the process, not the outcome.
The outcome is always satisfying, always good.
Maybe failure in one thing would not lead to success in the another thing.
But when the failures add up, experiences are gained, it lead to one success.
Which mean the number of failures will not necessary commensurate to the number of success.
It will definitely be higher than the number of success because we need to go through a lot of things before we taste the sweetness of it.
It is such a mixed feeling leaving here, seeing what I have been through, and now, watching my happy ending.
It is actually fated to be a happy ending no matter what have happened in between.
So why don't we have the faith, try our best in everything, embrace the failures and wait for the success to come? =)
Thanks to those who have lend me their hands, lead me through all those obstacles so that I can have faith in myself.
And thanks to those who made me suffer, you make me grow.
This time around, I know I can do it no matter what happen.
Bad things are just the components.
Good things are the outcome.
We don't actually need to worry about our next step because what you are going to do, what you are going to achieve is predetermined.
You might stumble but the next thing you know, you have already stood up and recovered from the light injury.
It is an amazing feeling when u reminisce. The things you had gone through, the process has become clear.
You might have complaint a little about the rugged and bumpy road. But at the end you realised that is just something in the process, not the outcome.
The outcome is always satisfying, always good.
Maybe failure in one thing would not lead to success in the another thing.
But when the failures add up, experiences are gained, it lead to one success.
Which mean the number of failures will not necessary commensurate to the number of success.
It will definitely be higher than the number of success because we need to go through a lot of things before we taste the sweetness of it.
It is such a mixed feeling leaving here, seeing what I have been through, and now, watching my happy ending.
It is actually fated to be a happy ending no matter what have happened in between.
So why don't we have the faith, try our best in everything, embrace the failures and wait for the success to come? =)
Thanks to those who have lend me their hands, lead me through all those obstacles so that I can have faith in myself.
And thanks to those who made me suffer, you make me grow.
This time around, I know I can do it no matter what happen.
Bad things are just the components.
Good things are the outcome.
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