The end is the beginning

That is when I start realising when a friendship ended, it will never resume again.
And the only thing you can do is to start another friendship/friendships with some new people.
That's it. End of the story.

Don't give up

The fish I know is not going to give up so easily.
So no matter what happens next, hold on to what you want and believe that you can do it.

The last paper

After 1 super torturing and 3 extremely challenging papers, here we are, the last final exam paper - BIS.
I would say as a first-year subject, it is not easy and we don't have the memory of what we learnt for the whole semester. haha
Anyway, 5 days more to go and all these will finish and I officially... graduate.
It is a mixed feeling that I want to go back to JB so much but I don't feel like leaving here forever.
As in, I won't be coming back to Subang to live anymore. The most I will do is coming back for holiday, to find Aaron Loo, Bak Jit Chang, Cheng Mun Teng, Tan Yi Qian, Abigail Soh and any other people who work here.
Haih. I don't really like the parting at the end of every three years.
I hope there is some ending here so that we can wrap up the memory of this three years, from TBS to Backside campus.
I would say three-year is long.
It is long enough for us to complete a degree, to grow to a more mature woman/man, to master something and to establish a very deep friendship.
I came here with the thoughts that I might spend the three-year alone, yet I was so fortunate that I met a bunch of amazing people.
Although we are all from different background, but somehow we are still loving this group so much.
I would say I really learnt a lot of them, as in, really a lot.
I used to be described as someone who only know stuff in textbook, and other than that, I am Noob.
But there is no one saying that to me in here.
I mean I know that that description is a joke, but without people constantly telling me that, my confidence level really increase quite a lot.
Some of the people here always encourage me, ask me to overcome my fear to do what I supposed to do.
I.....I really appreciate that although most of the time I still act like a coward.
But with them, I know what is the thing I am supposed to do because it is RIGHT so I can't run away from it.
There are so much to say about the three-year in here.
I would say I love it and hate it at the same time.
Love it when I learnt to be independent, to mix with new friends, to overcome one and one challenges that I am forced to do so
Hate it when I miss home, feel lonely, no tv, need to go da pao and need to learn to face everything on my own
Anyway, I shouldn't be writing such an emotional post early in the morning, when I just woke up and not even had my breakfast yet. haha
Good luck to everyone who is taking BIS, and for those who are taking IMT and BMPP also AND FOR BAK, GOOD LUCK FOR UR AUDIT! GET A HD FOR US! =)
Fei +u you can fight BMPP one right? and remember to find me always coz I really miss u! =)

AINO!!!!!!!

I am back from Pekan Nenas, with something special added to my life.
It is one of the things in the list of "dream comes true" in this year.
It is prefect and its presence did brighten up my mood a lot more and make me feel blessed.
The package doesn't contain a lot of things, but what is included definitely gave me some surprises.
It comes with a dock stand to support the 110g luminous white body and the bluetooth handsfree for charging, a USB cable that link to the com, long-lasting battery, and a 8GB memory card.
3 inches screen comes with the touch screen function for entertainment function, while key pad is available for use for basic functions.
Wi-fi, GPS, and a lot more function that I haven't discover yet.
It might not be as good as pda phone such as Iphone, but it is definitely the perfect phone for me given its price.
I love the handsfree most. It is definitely a smart gadget with pretty appearance! I like the light so much! hahah
No picture is uploaded as my old phone was taken for repair.
But real phone will be available for you to play if u meet me in person. wohooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
I am happy and satisfied =)

Your happiness = My happiness =)

My mille crepe cake and Lancaster dessert wine have received good responses from my family and cousin's family. haha
Happy happy =) my efforts do not go vain.
I know I still can't do much and contribute to this family, but I am doing as much as I can.
And I am really happy no matter how trivial the happiness I can bring to them.
Sedikit sedikit lama lama jadi bukit =)
I will do more and more.
Hopefully I can get a good job and high income so that I can let them to try more new stuff and experience this world.
It is time to take the responsibility to support them and bring them happiness as much as I can. =)

Closer or stranger?

When time goes by, it is either we become closer, or we reach a point that we are just stranger to each other.

I hope it will be a prefect weekend

Placed order and paid for my Sony Ericsson Aino already.

My current W810 is really going to die coz although I keep turning it on but it insists to OFF =( 

I managed to get a bargain from my cousin so it only costs me RM1000 instead of RM1000 + in other places.
Will be getting it on Sunday =)
Hopefully it doesn't disappoint me and make my days during this exam period. =)
Pray hard for my four hardest ever subjects and my deteriorated brain.
haih. I wish I have more time and brain cells for me to remember all of them.
Btw, I ordered mille crepe cake for Father's Day celebration! haha


Hopefully it is nice and brighten up everyone's Saturday =)
A lot of things to look forward this weekend =)
Good luck to everyone & +u =)

Light

For now I can't see light yet.
So I guess this is not the end of the tunnel.
Bear with it and I guess it will reach an end pretty soon.

Thank you for making me feel loved =)

There are some moments that I feel so loved that I feel myself being completed.
When my cousin asked me when I came back and volunteer to pick me up from Larkin.
I feel loved when he called me and asked me where was I so that I do not need to wait for him.
When Harry sang songs to me during the time I was down to cheer me up.
When my dad entered the room and asked me what I need to buy and what I want for breakfast tomorrow.
When I entered the house and see my mum was there for me no matter what time I came back.
When somebody bought me exactly what I want.
These moments are rare.
Especially for a girl who always feel empty rather than completed.
But these moments always brightened me up and I feel touched and contented with who I am when they happened.
I am a bit willful, always have high expectation, not easily contented, always asking for too much, defensive and do not care for people as often as normal people does.
But I really appreciate those who treat me well and I am really trying to give something in return as well.
I know I am not a person who someone will describe as nice and helpful, but I am fighting hard with my personality and bad experience to give more and take less.
And for those people who treat me well and love me for who I am, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me feel loved and being there for me.  =)
love ya.

The most important little thing (最重要的小事）

I hope one day, somebody will sing this for me, and mean it. =)

He gor he gor

I have been addicted to he gor since the first time I ate it.
He gor is 虾羔 in mandarin which is the small mantis prawn (濑尿虾)
We had he gor in Foh Foh just now.
Four of us ordered three different type of he gor =)
First one is mine which is butter he gor, the second one is xuan's, gong poh he gor, third one also butter, aaron's, last one is rain's one, the gan xiang which dont look or taste like the gan xiang we usually eat.

Group photo of our he gor. XD

Two days more to go and I will be in JB XD

zooooooooooommmmmmmmmmm 

*updated accomplised*  =)

Mayday's concert

I went to watch Mayday's concert just now. 

Although I don't have any idol, but they are the band that I admire the most.

Especially A Shin. 

I just love his voice. He can sing well no matter it is soothing songs or pop songs. 

I din bring my camera but managed to take some photo using my phone. 

You might notice that I took the pic of A Shin the most. hahah
yea. He is A.W.E.S.O.M.E
I want to marry to him! hopefully munteng won't fight with meeeeee.
arghhhhh I already miss him.... hahahha
Had a great night with hwee chee, fei and Mayday!
They give me a reason to live hard. =)
And Thanks Fei and Lik harng for sending us backkkk.
Appreciate that a LOT! XD

did u see it?

I have tried my best to compromise.
But the difference between me and others seems to make the efforts go unnoticeable.
I have tried with all means to sort these out
Yet I am not able to do so because I really don't know the art.
I compromised, yet I failed.